wow. i've got a long way to go.

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This song is my life right now.

The Spill Canvas - Himerus and Eros
You're captivating while evading
all the questions I have for you like,
"what exactly makes you tick?"
When the guilt sets in tell me
what are we going to do?

Your tongue is wet with a top secret passion
I hope I am the cause of it
I'll navigate this unsturdy vessel filled through a soft sea pillows and blankets

And I fight the urge to explore
the vastness of your curves I adore
You know I, I hate you
No, I hate you more
You know I, I love you
No, I love you more

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
especially when it comes to you

I've sunken in the quicksands of love
and I don't want you to rescue me
Screw what my supposed friends think
It's obvious they reek of jealousy
It's obvious they reek of jealousy

And I fight the urge to explore
the vastness of your curves I adore
You know I, I hate you
No, I hate you more
You know I, I love you
No, I love you more

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
especially when it comes to you

I hope to god I mean a little more than the sounds that escape your tired 4 A.M. lips
Oh-how I wish I meant a little more than a symphony of heavy breathing and the friction of hips

Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
especially when it comes to you

I can't believe I haven't even written an entry on Paris yet. Things have been soo hectic here.

Let's sum things up a little bit:

( housing )

( academics )

( social life )

( people )

( boys )

( & the rest )

Tags: paris
Grooving: JT - What Goes Around

"She's all alone. Makes you think... if I went missing, would anyone notice?"

"I'd notice. If you went missing, I'd notice."

- Grey's Anatomy 3.15

it's kind of ironic, isn't it... i'm losing all faith in love in the city of love.

stole this from gretchsky

This year, I...
[x] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[x] made out in a car
[ ] kissed in the snow
[x] kissed in the rain
[ ] had my heart broken
[ ] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[ ] lost a friend
[ ] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[ ] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[ ] dated someone I thought I loved
[ ] lost my true love
[x] lost faith in love chotto...
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[ ] got a pay raise
[x] changed jobs
[ ] lost my job
[x] quit my job for school
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[x] got straight A's
[x] met a teacher who I became friends with
[ ] met a teacher who I really hate
[x] found the subject I love
[x] skipped class
[ ] skipped school
[ ] got in a fight with a classmate
[x] did something I was proud of
[x] discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself an idiot
[ ] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[ ] painted a picture
[ ] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[ ] went to camp
[x] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[x] flirted shamelessly
[x] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign province
[ ] cooked a disastrous meal
[ ] was part of a rumor
[ ] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[ ] went on a diet
[ ] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair
[ ] came close to losing my life
[ ] someone close to me died
[x] went to a wild party
[x] drank alcohol
[x] drank alcohol underage
[x] got drunk
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[ ] lied to your parents
[ ] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police
[ ] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars
[ ] smoked
[ ] got high
[ ] got wasted
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[x] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding
[ ] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[x] got wasted in a public place
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[ ] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend
[ ] driven a car
[ ] played strip poker
[ ] danced in the rain
[ ] rode a bike in the snow
[ ] got in a car accident
[x] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got a new pet
[x] enjoyed this year overall


Wow, it's been a really long year. I didn't realize how much had happened. Second half of freshman year, the bahamas, summer in boston, my first real job and internship, sophomore year, learning a new language, joining a dance team. Paris, here I come :)

Current Location: Bobst
Feeling: tired
Grooving: Jay Chou - Nocture

Best movie ever.


Gauri: He said I'll put henna on my hands this year - I mean get married.
Bhuvan: That's great! Who's the lucky boy?
Gauri: How would I know? But Guran did say that the house I marry into will have a neem tree in the yard. It will also have a big field beside it, some chickens, two cows, and three goats. What about you?
Bhuvan: I'd have to marry someone my mother likes.
Gauri: Someone your mother likes?

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[Gauri is walking away in tears, Bhuvan shouts after her]
Bhuvan: Hey Gauri! There's only one house in the village with a neem tree in the yard. There's also a big field beside it. There's some chickens, two cows, and three goats. And I know whose house that is! It's mine, you silly girl! One thing before you go. Mother likes you, too!

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Wow, you could learn a lot about me if you read this whole thing. Hah. Does anything require elaboration?

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( it goes on... )

There's something about fireworks that just makes them a lot more fun when you're watching them with a boy. Or at least... when you're not watching fireworks alone.

On a completely unrelated note, it is so fucking hot in my room that I have resorted to just wearing a bra and shorts. I really hope no one randomly knocks on my door and asks for something. I guess that's a plus to not knowing a SINGLE PERSON here. haha.